Dream

I had an interesting dream this morning. I’ve heard that dreams are leftovers from the day, a message from the subconscious or a message from God. Hmmm….

I had an interesting dream this morning. I know it happened early this morning as I woke up and it was 4:00 AM. Yesterday it would’ve been 5:00 AM…but thanks to the time change I had a little more time to ponder the whole thing….and then go back to sleep!

I dreamt that I was walking into a school classroom-ish sort of area. I was pretty much just as I am now. I didn’t picture myself as being any different at all. There was a woman there who I knew to be the Father’s wife of Holy Cross…Frederica Matthewes Green. I’m not really sure why either one of us was there. Mrs. Matthewes-Green did not appear as I had seen her in her picture. She had long straight hair, gray and was closer to my age. But still, I knew it was her.

There were tables in the room, almost like a science lab sort of place. It almost had that feel to it as well. Frederica dropped a note book and I bent down to help her retrieve it. She knelt down as well and said to me, “I understand you have a website.”

“Yes,” I said, “there should’ve been a link in the e-mail I sent your husband.”

Frederica smiled at me warmly and said, “I’ll have to take a look at it.”

I remember feeling nervous in the dream and hoping that she didn’t take any “looks” at it…I think I actually told her the address and she wrote it down in her notebook.

I don’t really know what all of that was about. Although, I have some suspicions. I think a lot of has to do with writing. Frederica is a published author with several books (I think maybe 5) to her credit as well as a regular contributor to Christianity Today. She is also does some commentary for NPR. I would love to somehow be a published author. I don’t want to be famous at all. However, to be able to influence people in some way…and perhaps provide a little income for my family as well would be wonderful. I just haven’t a clue how to do that or if I’m even “good enough.”

I’ve had a couple of essays published on a website. That is not the same as getting into print. Not at all. I also didn’t see any cash. Not a big deal actually. It was awesome to see the byline with my name. I guess it’s just something out there in the mist…sort of nebulous. Hasn’t taken shape yet and I’m not even sure it’s supposed to.

So, I think the dream addresses some insecurities and longings about the whole “writer” thing. So, should anyone with dream interpretation experience want to take a stab at this…go ahead!