I feel a little better now...
All three children are at camp. They’ll be there for two weeks and while many parents might be jumping for joy at the prospect of 2 childless weeks, I have felt a little weird about it. I’ve always wanted to be a mother. I like being a mother. Don’t get me wrong, when I get some time to myself, I enjoy and savor every moment. However, those previous times of solitude have been when the kids were at the grandparents or with friends. I could get my hands on them in 15 minutes if I wanted to.
This time, they are a 3 1/2 hour drive away and completely out of my “zone.” Most parents (I think I’m not alone at least) have a sort of invisible boundary line when out with their children. You don’t have to see them to know that they’re close by. Once you “feel” them move out of that zone, you start looking around, wondering where they are. The kids are way out of my “zone” and it feels, well, weird.
Parenthood